Friday's Post - but it's Monday ...

Do you have people in your life that seem to suck all the happiness and confidence out of you? I mean, life is going along nicely, you've accepted what you can, have been moving forward, have even found happiness, and POOF! they show up again; and your world spirals downward - AGAIN! It's not a matter of fault, really. It's just that, well, life without them works just fine no matter how much you love them. When they re-enter, even for a few minutes, after being away; your life tilts, perspective twists, and you're lost again. All the putting back together you've done goes. It just leaves. There you sit wondering what the hell just happened and what the hell are you supposed to do about it, if anything. You don't know if you're supposed to change things or accept how they are. You don't have the wisdom to know the difference. Agony tackles you, and all the plans you had for the upcoming days, weeks, months, and years melt away. Your head and heart whirl. The pain that had finally gone away comes back, and you cry. What to do? What to do? What to do? It would help if these people would just be honest about whatever it is that they're thinking and doing, but that's the thing; they aren't. So many unanswered questions lead to doubt and fear. The future is again foreboding and heartache returns and takes up residence. Is it time for a decision? Should joy fight for its place? Does joy fight back? Turmoil, strife, grief and all that other crap conquer you while you sleep. You awaken as the old person you worked so hard to leave behind simply because someone entered your life when you weren't expecting them to. They disregarded your boundaries and took what they wanted, then they left you again. It's emotional rape.